Back on the treadmill

It is not surprising to me that my back has been hurting, with increasing intensity and frequency. My feet have started going numb, and I can tell that the disks in my back are starting to slip out of place.

I've been instructed not to exercise yet, but last night I realized that I now face a choice: I can either not exercise, and let my back go out, and take longer to recover that way (and face doing with without painkillers because I am breastfeeding), or I can exercise sooner that I should and face a slightly longer recovery because of that. I anticipate worse exhaustion and more time before I really feel well again - and I will probably increase my bleeding and stuff like that, which I'm not supposed to do - but I really think that this is the best choice at the moment. I checked my thinking with my husband, and he agreed.

So, I walked on my treadmill again this morning! I started faster than I've been in months, though after about 1/8 mile I slowed down quite a bit. I stopped for a while half way through to feed the baby, and when I stood up again it was once again hard to walk so I slowed down even more at that point. Even so, I am happy with myself for exercising again. I truly want this to be who I am. I hope the side effects on my recovery aren't too severe, but I am sure that my back will hurt less within a week if I consistently do this.